Today after such a long time I am feeling like blogging.....Its more of sharing an experience...My strange conversation with God.
Its been quite sometime I have been thinking about the people, God chose and inspired them to write The Word of God..every word, God-breathed..Wow!..This made me envious!!!....and one day simply thinking about it I went into a conversation with God on this...
Why not me!..You created me, with a purpose as every author in the Bible...You fashioned me through all temptations, struggles n difficult situations, just as anybody else in the Bible...You gave me a story, a live message, a testimony embodied within me..then how am I different from the authors in the Bible..if they could be used for your glory then, why can't I the same way now.....and amazingly when I was asking these questions-probing questions one day, the Spirit of God filled me with a sense of gratitude and praise,...I realized I felt an urge to write....I took my diary and started writing...
Here how it began......
Every time I come into your presence Lord, I am wonder-struck by the awesome power of your love which envelopes me and fills me with your Spirit.
Long before I was born you thought of me. Long before I was even conceived in my mom's womb I was conceived in your mind. You chose my parents, my family, my living conditions for me, you allowed good things and bad things in my life to condition my heart , my personality and my whole perspective towards life and still you are working on me. You know my past , present and future even before I was born.
What can I hide from you my Lord!
You are my creator and only you know the purpose of my life. You created me for your glory, for your pleasure, you shaped my heart and filled it with enormous love n compassion, so that I can serve your purposes through every act of my life.
Even when I walked through the most devastating moments in my life, You taught me to depend on you and look upto you alone and I saw your loving arms around me to comfort me.You never held back to even meet me in dreams and visions whenever it was my strong desire in distress.
You fashioned my thoughts, my desires and my burdens to Glorify you my Lord! I am so fortunate that you chose me to be your child out of millions and billions who still don't know you... You touched my heart, you touched my soul, and made me whole...only to make me love you back....
Though I was born a sinner, sin was flowing in my veins and I being a human could not do anything through my own human efforts to be saved from the punishment and was falling short of your Glory,...You made me Right in your sight. You made me stand like a Holy n Righteous by purchasing all my past, my present and even my future sins, by the blood of Jesus as a currency paid in this dealing. How precious my freedom is!! How costly my redemption is!! For my Salvation You gave up your Son! How heart-tearing Sacrifice it would have been!! How true your Word is .."For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him will never perish but have everlasting life". Just n just by believing in you as my Saviour You made me right. You made me a whole new creation filled me with your own Spirit and loved me even more than before.
You completely forgot all my transgressions and my inequities. You took away all the burdens of my soul Lord! so that I can walk instep with you freely, worrying about nothing at all... You promised me to never leave me. You promised me you will always protect me. All your promises are in Yes and Amen. How compassionate and patient You are my Lord! You waited for years for my heart to open for you, to accept you and love you. Your costly n expensive Grace is sufficient for my survival Lord! You restore me, you sustain me, you satisfy me in every way my Master! Your Mercy follows me, searches me to give me Life every moment...
Thank you Lord for selecting me for your Glory. Thank you for your Grace- an unmerited favour upon me. Thank you for your Mercy- an undeserved forgiveness to me. Thank you for your unfailing Love for me, for moulding and still transforming me into a person you imagined me to be, for opening the eyes of my heart just at the right time you had planned, for me to see you and understand you. Thank you for revealing your heart to me, talking to me through your Word (Bible). Thank you for being there always even when I feel I dont need you. Thank you for being a God who does not expect me to do anything to win your favor...no deeds, no works, no mere religiosity, no rituals, no practices to please you....but just an authentic heart who can love you truely and faithfully.
May my life be acceptible in your eyes Lord!
May your presence surround me always!
May every act of my life always bring you glory Lord!
May my intentions and motives stand corrected in your sight.
May my heart be always authentic for your Love n Mercy.
May I never be glorified but in everything I do, you be!
All glory n honor n praise unto you n you alone.
And after writing this I realized..and was confident..It was not a strange conversation but God did use me for His glory by urging me to write....just as He used other authors in the Bible. :)..so that whoever will read it will be blessed to know His divine nature n His purpose n His Love for them.
God Bless you all
...and may you all be the proud spectators of God's work in and through your lives even in little details....like me :)
